So 2024 was a helluva year:
- We bought a house! A beautiful old house with good bones that just needed a bit of love. It ticked all the boxes for us, and it’s in a suburb that we never thought we’d be able to afford to buy in
- We made our first visit back to the U.S. since moving to Australia and spent some good quality time with family and friends
- My partner started a new job that he loves
- We completed key renovations and prepared to move out of our rental apartment and into our own house. Hell yeah!
- I found a lump in my breast the day before we moved house
Yeah. I’ve had a lump before, a few years prior, that turned out to be benign. But this time felt different. I had noticed some unexplained soreness in my armpit in the previous couple of weeks, and my mind calculated that [armpit soreness means lymph nodes]+ [lump in breast] = [could be cancer]. I couldn’t do anything about it in the moment with the final packing to do and the movers coming the next day. I had to set my fear and worry aside and just fucking get on with it. I went to see my GP first thing the following Monday and got it checked out.
The lump turned out to be breast cancer, and not just any old breast cancer. I was diagnosed with triple-negative breast cancer (TNBC), a particularly aggressive and fast-growing type of breast cancer that is difficult to treat. Apparently, it has the lowest survival rate of all the types of breast cancer. However, there have been advances in treating TNBC in just the past five years that have significantly improved survival rates for this type of cancer. If I was going to get TNBC (and I did), I suppose that now wasn’t a bad time to get it.
Scans indicated that it was locally advanced (breast and lymph nodes only), so stage 3. My treatment goal is therefore cure, as opposed to management. Within about a week and half of the diagnosis being confirmed, I started intensive chemotherapy. I’ve got a couple more sessions to go and then I’ll be done with chemo and onto getting ready for surgery. My doctors are happy with my treatment progress and they tell me I have a good chance of beating this and living many more years.
I mentioned in my last post that I don’t do New Year’s resolutions, but I do like to reflect on the past year and think about how I want to show up for the year ahead. I can tell you that having cancer was definitely not on my bingo card! Life really does throw shit at you that you just have to roll with. I don’t know how much time I have left on this beautiful ball of mud that we call home (really, none of us do) but whether it’s measured in months or years I know that as long as I am alive I want to live the best life that I can. Sending love to you all.
Also: fuck cancer!!